What a week!

Well I got my scores back from my Unit three exams and I finally did better than the average of the class! I am finally getting into the swing of things here. On sadder notes, my hubby did not get the job we hoped for so now we are getting a little stressed about him finding a job. I got back and forth on feeling bad for him and angry at him for not listening to me when I told him that it would be hard to find a job and he should have started applying while he was still in Virginia. He wants to re-enlist but that would mean leaving me and my son. Besides it breaking my little boys heart, it would make med school damn near impossible for me. It is too much work, and I cannot do it all on my own. I told him that if he left that I was not sure I would be here waiting for him. I am just so frustrated with this economy and that his first instinct is always to leave. He did that while in the military..every time we needed money or we were arguing alot he would volunteer for a deployment! This is probably the first time I have ever really put my foot down on something, so I think it is a bit of a shock for him (normally I am very laid back) but to make it worse his mother (who I do not get along with) is telling him that re-enlisting is probably his best bet!!! What does she expect me to do? Go to school, study 3-4 hours a day, manage a house (including lawnwork) take care of my son, and still maintain my grades and sanity? Not a chance that would even happen! I would probably have a mental breakdown. With all the help I have now I cry at least 2x a week from the stress! I am just going to continue to pray and trust that God will provide Bill with a wonderful job that fulfills all our needs. 

Thanks for listening to me vent! : ) Until next time!!

Well I hope everyone had a Happy Halloween! I had a nice weekend...for once I did absolutely no studying! I have a feeling I will feel guilty about that when I get to school tomorrow but for now it feels good. We are in our last unit of Anatomy and Histology! Thank goodness. These classes are just straight memorization of about 500 pages of notes per exam. I can't wait for Physiology and Biochemistry...more to learn but instead of just memorizing you have to actually understand what is going on. Plus we will be done with anatomy lab. I thought I would like lab, but on Friday our body had a bowel movement while we were trying to dissect! I almost threw up!! I don't know why they can't clean the bodies out before we get them, but even our instructors we grossed out! 

On other topics, my husband had a great job interview Saturday for a government position. We will find out on Weds but I am praying like crazy that he gets it. Little by little his self-confidence is chipping away with every day that goes by unemployed. It would be a great opportunity for him and for our family so hopefully I will have good news soon!!  Well that is all for now, I am sure I will have more to write about when I get my grades tomorrow!

First Post : )

I tried blogging a while ago and never really kept up with it. However I find writing is a good therapy for me, so I am going to try it again. I am wife, a mom, and most recently a Medical Student. I started school in August and it has been the toughest transition for me. I knew the work was going to be demanding, but I cannot believe the amount of information I have to know and how much time it takes me to memorize! My husband has been wonderful, and really stepping up to a more active "dad" role, but I still feel guilty. Even when I have time with my son, I am so tired. We have a few good memory making moments here and there, but I miss having a more active role in his everyday life. He seems to be adjusting just fine. It is just me that is having issue. Maybe it is just upsetting that he is doing so well without me around all the time. I guess I should just be grateful that he is such a flexible kid! Well that is all the time I have for now. I will post more later!